I'm sitting here at my pc, ready to pass out after a very long day (being the family taxi, while trying to do something for myself for a change) and it occurred to me that I'm actually being used by someone who I thought was a nice person - a friend. Someone I could encourage and support, and lift up and guide.
I get it.
Having "status" in life can be important to some people, but it's not to me. Not in that sense, anyway. A very small group of people know to what I'm referring to...
In the last few weeks, I have been suffering from interrupted sleep. I won't go into it, but lets just say I've considered using a pillow to smother..... I'm obviously kidding... But this has lead an already iron-deficient woman such as myself to become tired on a regular basis. Daily, in fact.
On top of this, I'm going through a lot of rigorous tests for other health issues, which I'm not going to openly discuss.
I feel a lot of pressure practically everywhere to get a job instead of being my son's full time carer. But every job I've applied for is a dead end. I could make a Faux CV, but if I did that and the government found out, I'd probably lose my support for my Autistic son.
Pathetic right?
Also... on the 16th of August, I will have been married for a year.
Why am I telling you this?
Because aside from the fact that I am a Senior here on DeviantArt, I'm also a person, with real life dramas and challenges and struggles and celebrations etc.
I can't lie when I say that I'm actually really disappointed to learn that someone I felt could be a great friend is actually just interested in what the friendship can bring them. This hurts me.
Surprise surprise... I also have feelings.
I just want to bring forward the fact that all CV's, Staff and Seniors (even group admins/chat moderators etc) are real people with real life stuff going on and that you really shouldn't take any of them for granted, because if you finally make the social climb you're after, and are done... they may be done with your friendship if that's all you wanted from them.
Just something to think about... Sorry it's a little deep. I've got a lot going on right now...
On a side note, I would like to apologise for being so unavailable this last week in all my commitments. Things sort of exploded in my life and I've got heaps happening. Please keep my Hubby's family in your prayers or thoughts. This week is going to be a hard one. Cheers..
Always be awesome - but by awesome I mean genuine, caring, friendly... and not with an ulterior motive.
Jojo.
Skin by Dan Leveille
