He had left me standing beside a road to pursue an opportunity of a lifetime, or so he said. I taught myself to hate him. Between the agonising love I had for him and the torturous hate I learned to feel for him, I truly didn’t know the truth, nor did I want to. My heart was torn unequivocally from my chest - broken.
But you would think that this alone was enough to break me. I was a shadow of my former self; a remnant. I went through every hour of every day forcing myself to be happy; a feeling I simply didn’t have anymore. Eventually I learned to accept my situation. I decided never to love, never to put myself into suc
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Chapter One
Love and Death, Death and Love.
I rode in my father’s carriage toward my home town of Coraman. He had sent for me regularly before, but this time the destination was filled with sad memories. I felt unsettled at the thought of it. I didn't know who would be at the wake.All the faces that were in her life, from one time or another, most likely. A legacy would be left behind in their eyes of the time they had with her; the colourful nature that she was and the way people saw her. And now she was gone. My mother, Avelyn Thomas, was gone and I felt a void like never before. I felt like a delicate object, waiting to break a
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Chapter 1 – Sour.
I drove through the winding road, like I had a thousand times before. This time was different. This time, I knew exactly what to expect. My skin crawled at the thought of it. I knew who would be at the house; all the faces that were in her life from one time to another. A legacy would be left behind in their eyes of the time they had with her. Her past – the colourful nature that she was and the way people saw her. And now she was gone. My mother was gone and I – the strong one in the family – would try to keep the shards left of my family in one piece. I never saw myself as the strong one. Her exist
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Chapter Two
Seeing Michael
As Michael and I sat down at Mr. and Mrs. Grattan's Tea shop, as secluded as we could be, I became an onlooker to the other patrons, although I felt like some of them were watching me. It made me feel uneasy. I had to look away when the tea arrived, and focusing on my tea made me feel oddly better.
“So how long will you be staying?” I probed. If he wanted me to start being part of his life again, he would need to give me a good reason, I figured. But for now I decided to watch what I did or said. I didn't know if he was back permanently, or just visiting and ready to tear down the wall I h
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Chapter 2 – You're Incredible
As Michael and I sat down at the café, as secluded as we could be, I became an onlooker to the other patrons. My large mug of Chai latte made me feel oddly better.
"So how long will you be sticking around?" I probed. If he wanted me to start being part of his life again, he would need to give me a good reason, I figured. But I tried being a good sport.
He looked up at me and smiled his radiant smile. "Well, uh… I'm not sure. I mean I'm still pretty new to the organisation, but I'm allowed some time for situations like your mum's funeral, and stuff like that. They aren't too tight about persona
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Chapter Three
Twin Discoveries
I was halfway out of the buggy when Michael pulled it up to the front of the house. Jonah was outside, having a cigar, sitting on the over-sized door step. He picked at a piece of weed sitting in the garden and was pulling it to shreds.
“Jonah! Oh dear, Jonah,” I called to him, running to hug him. “Do you hurt? Are you in pain? You can tell me. It’s okay.” Jonah got up and embraced me – an automatic reaction. I could smell his anger, and pulled away from him. He was looking at Michael.
“You told her?” Jonah’s eyes narrowed at Michael